Friday, November 18, 2005
i went hari raya-ing with my friends today for the first time in my entire life... we all looked sooo pretty/handome.. hahaha... however the book never had the perfect ending which i had always wished for.. i never made it to issys house.. and it kills cuz its 5yrs.. and i was hoping this year would be the year... haiz.....
i really wanna go... :(
**I WANNA MEET HIS MOM!!!!!!and the fooodddd... I HEARD SHE ROCKS THE SOCKS OUTTA EVERYONEE!**
so yea... im back home........ wondering why everythings the way it is... why do people keep wanting more... why do people have feelings they dont wanna have... why do people who smile a lot ends up being the bruised ones..... haiz... those kindda questions keep hittin my mind, makin me so upset with life..... where's my positiveness in life? where did it all go? ...... i need it back cuz im in a very fragile state rite now......... haiz.......
i always go by life with bob marleys lines in my head but today i wonder...is everything reaallly gonna be alrite????.....................
to someone:**hey.. please dont get all upset.. im only going for a while... and im reallly really sorry if i bring in that much misery.. i dont mean to.. and if u want, i can end everything with u to stop makin u so upset...and sleeping isnt the only way to 'numb' urself... there are 'some' people who can make u smile and forget abt the worst..... theres ............... nvm....."
Jammin at
11:42 PM